Sunday, February 1, 2009
Valentines and Goodbye Fall Hello Spring
What do you do when you are dealing with grief and relief on a Sunday? I did some thread painting/sewing on white muslin making Valentines for my little grand kids...then that wasn't enough so I layered that on top of red with white heart cotton and that on pink tulle, and that on deep rose fleece with a off white muslin backing that shows on the outside border. Oh and I added some red sparkly hearts to them too. and then talking to SIL on the phone, sharing Erika stories, hearing about how her end days were as prescribed by Hospice's folder, right by the book; validating our reality of her dying and death seemed to help...sharing how DH took care of my mother in her last year of life and how K. took such good care of her mom, Erika...How hard it is to be so far away and not be able to help more, praising each other for what we did do over the years...receiving understanding, no ill feelings there, acceptance. going outside in the sunshine, yes we have that here in No. CA... seeing the left over signs of winter... The first signs of spring... grapefruit tree full of fresh fruit...new life...and life goes on.